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There are not a lot of things in this world that do not scare me at some level. Everything from driving my car to watching a movie to eating at a restaurant. There is always the notion of "what if" lurking somewhere in my head.
What if I get a flat driving on the interstate with my kid depending on me for safety? What if the movie, that we waited for so long and invested so much effort into watching, is a dud? What if the restaurant's definition of hygiene and mine do not meet and I go home with a food borne disease?
The same fear accompanies me to work. What if a bad or hasty decision on my part leads me to play a part in negatively impacting someone's career? What if I do not invest enough time in choosing a solution for my team and client that leads to short term gain but a long term problem?
There are, indeed, a lot of "what if's".
Every day there is a struggle to be more and do more. Every day, with a shrinking world, our lives are becoming harder and easier (depending on what you do and who you ask). In times like these, what would I gain from being scared all the time?
I treat my fear as a motivating agent. Instead of cowering in fear, I try and do something about it.
With my son in the car, for example, I take extra care to drive safe. With the dependency that my team has on me, I do not rush to decisions. They are a lot more deliberate. To not get out of date with the knowledge of my art, I try to read and learn continuously.
Yes, I might not have an end for my fears, but I do realize that the only way around it is through it.